I have a job interview this Thursday. I'm kinda starting to get nervous already. Although I'm more excited than nervous ^^.

Wish I could say more about it but I don't know that much yet myself. Don't even know what position I'm applying for.

I told those people at my voluntary work about it, they seem to think I'll get hired immediately or so. The lady of the library acted like it was my last day today O_O.

Anyway, I think that if I'll get the kind of job I have in mind, I will be a very happy girl.

I'm kinda fustrated and sad because right now I'm not at this concert I wanted to go to. It was a concert abroad and I didn't want to go there on my own because I'd not feel comfortable at all. Although right now I'm not feeling that happy either. So was this a good decision? I'm not sure... I just know I feel unhappy and really wanted to have been able to go... but NOT on my own. They're still giving a concert in Germany this Saturday though. But I don't feel like going abroad on my own, finding my way there (at night) and then going back to my hotel, spend the night by myself and then return home. Why couldn't they just come to Belgium? It'd make things a lot easier for me.. but yeah, most artists don't perform in Belgium. We're not big so not important enough? It's sad. Maybe I'll have some more luck next year...

I used to never want to go to concerts anyway. Not sure how or when that changed.

Oh well, I'll just study some more, then I'll understand their lyrics better xD.

Okay, I don't hate or dislike my volutary work but... I want to be challenged from time to time and I am not being challenged. Apparently FB -ugh- can help with finding a job/getting a job offer. Not too sure how to go about that.. I don't want to come across as an anime/manga-(lover-)geek though. I don't mind people know I'm interested in Japan (also China & Korea). Anyway, not too sure why I'm already thinking about all this since I'm supposed to take my time and all.


Some happier news: I got to go to the largest Belgian bookfair this Friday. I got a free ticket (and free ride) from those people of my voluntary work. It was nice. Didn't buy anything though, although I saw publicity for an e-reader there. You can order it online but need a visa -ugh- which I don't have. I did see that a new series of Fiona McIntosh is being translated to Dutch!

Okay, I've been wanting to delete my FB account a couple of weeks back. Until Sama-chan said it's a good way to keep in contact with people. But today, while reading about the impending changes on smart.fm, I realized I basically hate FB. It's so messy, so... cluttered with stuff, I absolutely hate that. If Smart.fm is going to change into FB2 I might start hating it soon.

I'm noticing changes in myself lately. Like I'm eating/preparing more vegetarian food and actually liking it? It really surprises me.

I've dreamt of my deceased cat Casper last Monday. It's weird because I almost never can remember my dreams. He's also dead for like 2 years already. And why am I dreaming about him so near to Samhain? It's weird. I'm interested in druidry but can't call myself a druid... So I'm wondering if it's something I did subconciously...

Anyway, in the dream he and I were mostly like we were before. He was alive and happy to be around me, followed me to places. He used to follow me around already, but in my dream it was more than just a bit of walking around the garden or in the house. Anyway, he seemed to be really happy. I felt very peaceful having him around me. Most of the dream was peaceful until I found it weird he didn't eat. So I gave him some food. He ate it but threw it up. Then I started thinking 'Why is he throwing it up?' Then I remembered! 'Casper is sick! He's dead, he doesn't need to eat anymore!' and I woke up. I felt very sad waking up like that, also because most of the dream was so peaceful and it gave me the feeling he'd stay around forever. That's the feeling he gave off to me in my dream.

A friend said she believes spirits of dead friends/family will visit you from time to time in your dreams. I don't know what to think. I kinda want to believe it was him but I can't be sure. I want to be sure. What I do know is that he felt very real in the dream.

I've been posting short entries in Japanese on another site but haven't found the time to post here. Time passes by pretty quickly...

Currently I'm reading a series by Margret Weis and Tracy Hickman, called Rose of the Prophet. I really love their books.

Those past few months I haven't read any books at all, I did listen to short stories. I love Podcastle and recently started listening to Escape pod too.


Anyway... this Friday I went to my voluntary work again. I really started disliking it lately but I think it was because I wasn't getting challenged anymore. Everything seemed boring to me. So the night before I just couldn't sleep and it took me a long time to finally fall asleep. I did go to my voluntary work but I had a hard time concentrating on things. I made some mistakes, I found it boring. I didn't hate(d) it... just found it boring.

But about an hour before going home, they decided to teach me something new! I was happy about that. It was more complicated than the other stuff I had to do up until now so she was surprised that she only had to explain things once... Somehow I didn't have any problems focusing on that :o.

I learnt a new english word : sustainable development! It's a pretty interesting topic. Like I was in the shop a few days ago and needed hand soap. I looked for it and saw a bottle of 'ecological hand soap' picture! It's the same brand we have at work so I bought it! I think I need to buy more of this ecover brand. I feel I'm actually doing something now! Yeah sure, it costs more, but I have no problem with that.

I really want to go to a normal library though. Get some new books to read but it seems I'm lacking time and when I do have time, the library's closed :-(. So to satisfy my hunger (at least a bit), I've been listening to Podcastle. I've been thinking about giving their sience fiction pod (Escape Pod) a try too.

Oh and I want to start a Japanese journal, but I don't feel confident enough >.>. I should just start it *sigh*. Sometimes even I really get tired of my lack of confidence of myself.

Iemand heeft tegen me gezegd dat ik mijn ouders niet mag beschuldigen van bepaalde dingen die gebeurd zijn. Ik ben een KOPP-kind, maar da's geen reden om boos zijn en om te zeggen dat er dingen zijn gebeurd die ik liever niet had zien/laten gebeuren?

Ik begrijp ook wel dat mijn ouders het niet opzettelijk hebben gedaan, maar het is gebeurd en ik moet die dingen nu meedragen voor de rest van mijn leven. Het maakt me boos en ik ga ze ook niet zomaar vergeven. Misschien kwam het over alsof ik ze beschuldigde, misschien heb ik dat ook gedaan, ik weet het niet meer. Mijn ouders doen hun best en ik zie ze ook nog graag, maar ik ben boos. Enorm boos.

I really really really want an Ereader. But I want a Sony one because they're not that expensive. The sad thing is that you can't buy them in Belgium (yet). Only if you order online... from Germany or England or so. Sucks >.<.

I had a conflict at my voluntary work last week. Then some other things happened and made it a pretty stressful week.  But then again, things easily become stressful for me because I have PTSS. Which is why I'm watching my food now too. So annoying... But this week's better so far.
Received a mail from someone at work today. She wanted me to send her a copy of something I've been working on for more than a month now. (Last week I even got fustrated with it because they wanted me to change loads of stuff again.) She wrote it'd be very useful for her. Reading that mail made me feel appreciated. I'm glad that all those hours I've spent on it - and am still going to spend - haven't been a waste of my time.

Last week my aunt and uncle were saying they're having so much stress. But it's their own fault. They want to earn lots of money, only sleep 4h a night and work very hard... *sigh* They should be glad they don't have PTSS. They should also take better care of themselves.

Anyway, I'm studying more Japanese now because... in evening school it's 6 years, they want to make it 8. After those 8 years you can read about 500 kanji or so? Meh, I can read about 1000 (probably more now) and I'm just so tired of waiting, Japanese class is so slow, might as well study some more on my own. I want to make some progress here. I also need to improve my French for my voluntary work (I want to too) but as long as I feel this urge to become loads better at Japanese, there's no point in studying French because it's just not on top of my priority list. Just like when I wanted to become good at English when I was in high school. Back then I didn't care much about French so I just studied enough to get good grades. I wasn't really good at it, nor bad.

I finished reading Moreta's story last week and I have to say I really liked it a lot. Wish I had someone who wants to discuss it with me though. I've read several Pern books and I'm planning to read them all, it would be so nice if I could find someone who likes to read them too and share/compare opinions.

Anyway, won't write a review on the book. I read other people's reviews but don't like writing them myself, hehe.

Today I heard 2 men talking in the train. Well, I saw them too but that doesn't matter for this entry.

One of them (the older one) said that people are always busy, they have to do this and that and no, a dead moment is not a word in their dictionary! They don't take the time to think about their life. (That kind of reminds me of my aunt and her husband but this also doesn't have much to do with this entry.) He said that when he was a child, there were days he had no homework and on some of those days, he did nothing. Just enjoy the moment and think. I think he's right, people are responsible for their own happiness, they need to take some time for themselves from time to time, not rush, rush, rush and never question things. No wonder people are so stressy, right?!

I have -and take- the time to think about what I want and where my life is going right now. There's a lot I still want to change but I'm working on it.
I think an important point is not wanting too much. I want a lot like everyone else... but I invest time in my priorities. If I still think I have enough time and energy left, I'll take up a bit more. Not saying I have no stress, I have enough, but I try to limit the amount.

The way you think is important too but I don't want to write about that now. (Too tired) But if you're reading this and think you're also a person who rushes through life then I want to give you the following advice: - Learn to say no!  - Get to know your limits! - Take some time for yourself from time to time. (And yes, those first 2 things take time!)

I'm pretty tired. Today I had to help set up the library (or at least a part of it). (It moved.) Going to Brussels is already tiring, add setting up bookshelves and you'll get very tired. Or at least I do.

Next week I have to send an e-mail to all organisations in the building, informing them about it, asking them some questions. Then later I have to go to all the organisations, speak with people about which books they want in the library etc.. I'll surely have enough work.

Ik vertaal graag... maar het is best veel werk. Er zullen ook altijd wel woorden zijn die je (nog) niet zo goed kent of niet weet hoe je ze in de context moet vertalen. Ik hou wel van het opzoekwerk, maar toch neemt het wel wat tijd in beslag. Maar hoe meer je het doet, hoe meer je kent en hoe beter je wordt. Ik doe het graag, vind het leuk en dat is momenteel het belangrijkste =).

Ik ben momenteel weer een boek van Anne McCaffrey aan het lezen. Nederlandse titel: Drakenvrouwe, Engelse titel: Moreta, dragonlady of Pern. Ik heb al een aantal Pern boeken gelezen (Dragonflight, Dragonquest, White dragon, Dragonsdawn) en hoop er nog een aantal aan mijn collectie toe te voegen. Het is spijtig dat er maar een aantal van deze boeken vertaald zijn (denk ik?) dus de rest zal ik in het engels moeten lezen. Als je van sci-fi, of/en fantasy en draken houdt, moet je deze serie zeker eens proberen. Ik ben normaal niet zo'n sci-fi lezer, of tenmiste, dat dacht ik. Na het lezen van haar boek Dragonsdawn, dat toch wel wat meer sci-fi-achtig was dan de andere van deze serie die ik gelezen heb tot dusver, moet ik toch zeggen dat het een bepaalde (goede!) indruk op me heeft achtergelaten.

I love reading. Wanted to read something in the train today but I think books cost too much if you're only gonna read them once... And they take up space in my room. I don't have much money right now and definitely not much free space available anymore for any books. Best solution = library. Too bad they don't have many english books though. They're translated to dutch, which is cool too, but now I have to wait to be able to read the 3rd book of the Trinity serie while that book's been written years ago. It sucks cuz I love that series. But anyway, I'll live.

Today's been a pretty annoying day. Have decisions to make now and I'm sure that whatever I choose, I'll regret dropping the other option later. I'm going to try to work something out but I'm not sure if other ppl will like that >.>.

Oh btw, Acid black cherry has some really really nice songs. The lyrics of Prologue end are beautiful... If you haven't heard it yet, then listen to it. I'm not sure if the lyrics are translated or not but probably they are.